Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Stresssssssssssed out

I am so tired and stressed out its ridiculous. I really just wanted to stay in bed today but I will be off work on Friday and didn't think it was best to be out two days. I have such a hard time "letting go" of things that are out of my control. I took my polygraph two weeks ago and I knew I passed but I have been waiting for a phone call letting me know if I was going to continue moving forward. I have been on pins and needles waiting and he finally called yesterday to let me know my psych appointment is set for Friday morning. That was a relief getting his call but now I'm nervous about Friday. I guess I'm nervous because its something I haven't done before and not sure what all to expect.

I have also been stressed about Frappy, he has had 3 more seizures in the last couple weeks, and it terrifies me because I am not ready to lose him. I hate not knowing how much longer he will be around. I hope I have at least 3 years! He is a little fighter and I love him so much.

This morning I went and signed a conditional job offer which pretty much says as long as I pass psych and the medical, the job is mine...
I am pretty useless at work today... my head is elsewhere. And I am tired.
Happy Wednesday friends :)

Sunset from last night :)

7 comments:

Rach said...

I have a hard time letting things go, too. I start my new job on Jan 10, and the past two months have been so stressful with interviews, then the physical and background test, then going in to fill out all my paperwork. I wish I was starting sooner because now I have a week to be constantly stressing about my first day. I really should just let go and enjoy my last week of freedom, but I just can't! Will say a prayer for Frappy and hope you feel better soon :)

californiadreamin said...

we all have days like this girly, hang in there <3 I'll say a little prayer for Frappy, I so know how that is with my little baby. She is getting seizures more frequently and it scares me so much. HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGS

Kristin said...

Oh lady! It's so hard to do daily things when you're so worried. Friday will come soon enough and then you can put that to rest! And just keep praying for your darling Frappy! I know there's nothing I could say to make you not worry about your baby....but I'm thinking of you both.

Lindsay said...

aw, hang in there! i am praying for you and frappy! i completely understand, my dogs are like my children....and i hope he gets better!

Kelsey said...

hold on and keep that head up. xoxo <3

Miss V said...

Take a deep breath and try to do something to take your mind off of the stress, I totally know how that is and I know it's easier said than done, but it's the best I've got!! Thinking of you lady and keeping my fingers crossed for you!

The Conway's said...

Sorry to hear you are stressed out! Hang in there...it will get better! My little guy has seizures too and the vet put him on medication. I hope that he gets feeling better. I know how much you care for your little guy