Stresssssssssssed out

I am so tired and stressed out its ridiculous. I really just wanted to stay in bed today but I will be off work on Friday and didn't think it was best to be out two days. I have such a hard time "letting go" of things that are out of my control. I took my polygraph two weeks ago and I knew I passed but I have been waiting for a phone call letting me know if I was going to continue moving forward. I have been on pins and needles waiting and he finally called yesterday to let me know my psych appointment is set for Friday morning. That was a relief getting his call but now I'm nervous about Friday. I guess I'm nervous because its something I haven't done before and not sure what all to expect.

I have also been stressed about Frappy, he has had 3 more seizures in the last couple weeks, and it terrifies me because I am not ready to lose him. I hate not knowing how much longer he will be around. I hope I have at least 3 years! He is a little fighter and I love him so much.

This morning I went and signed a conditional job offer which pretty much says as long as I pass psych and the medical, the job is mine...

I am pretty useless at work today... my head is elsewhere. And I am tired.

Happy Wednesday friends :)

Sunset from last night :)

Christmas has come and gone!!

Its amazing how fast Christmas has come and gone!!! I traveled up north with my dad to spend Christmas Eve and Christmas morning with my sisters and the kids. It was so nice having my family together, a Christmas I wont forget. These past few years have been so much more exciting with my niece and nephew in the picture, its all about them! I love watching Caden get more and more excited each year. This year he slept in until 8 and my sister had to finally wake him because we were all ready to open gifts! Here is my Christmas in pictures!!

Oh ya! The bf got me a LV!!

I was so shocked!!

Face time with the bf who was at home

Chatting away...

Loving her new doll

Love these kids!

I hope you all had a wonderful holiday weekend!! I am fighting a cold of some sort so I gotta get to bed early again tonight. I can't wait to catch up on your blogs tomorrow!!

xo

2 days til Xmas!

Can you believe how fast the month of December flew by?! I cannot believe in just two days its Christmas!

3 more hours and I will be outta work and I still have to go shop for a few more things!! Wish me luck!! 

The bf and I are very lucky to have so many things so its very hard to shop for someone who has everything under the sun. But I gotta think of something! And fast!!

My manager and another manager both got my gift cards and then combined with my other gift cards, I have all these!!

I will be drinking free for awhile!

Well tomorrow I will be off to my sisters house so I will not likely be blogging until Sunday...

I hope you all have an AMAZING holiday weekend and know that I am so appreciative of all of you for following me!

Frapster

My friend Kim gave me such a great gift for Christmas... A hand painted picture of my love!

Here is the original picture below

I love it!!

Here is Frap last night

Can you believe Christmas is in 4 days??

Cookies, Cookies, Cookies

Friday night I had my girlfriends over for an evening of baking and decorating cookies. My older sister was in town and she and my nephew came which was extra special. He loved all the attention from all the girls. He was our personal little photographer too! He would say, "come on girls, come over to the couch for a picture!" Too cute. So here we all are...

I wish I would have taken more pictures!

Saturday I had to do a sit-along at the Sheriffs department which entailed sitting with a dispatcher for 4 hours to get an idea of what the job consists of. Due to the rain, it wasn't as busy as it might have been but I still enjoyed being there. People sure call 911 for some ridiculous reasons... Anyways, I am still waiting to hear what the situation is with my background stuff...

Hope you are having a good Monday

Secret Santa

We have been playing Secret Santa at work for the past two weeks and we finally revealed ourselves today! I had NO idea who had me. We were supposed to leave little clues to help the person make some guesses but I really had no idea. The lady I sit close to told me she had our other buddy, but all along she had me! I didn't figure it out until the other person opened her present and her SS revealed herself. I was tricked!! I am so happy she had me though! Here is what I got!

A Starbucks cup and gift card! She definitely went over the $10 limit!

I am so looking forward to tonight!! I am having my favorite girls over to make Christmas sugar cookies and just spend time with one another. My sister and the kids are coming and I am SO excited to see them. Only 2 more hours of work and I'm outta here!!

4 Eyes

I can no longer call the bf 4 eyes! Not that I ever did it to be mean, but now he can almost see! Its really incredible how far technology has come! It only took about 10 minutes total for the lasik procedure and we were on our way home in no time. He was uncomfortable for some time, felt like he had sand or eyelashes in his eyes... but he just slept the afternoon/night away. Here he is on the way home...

Don't you love those eye shields? bahahaha

Tonight we are off to a Mexican dinner to celebrate his birthday with about 15 of our close friends.

And thank gosh tomorrow is Friday!

Polygraph

I had my polygraph this morning and I passed so I am one step closer to the goal!


Now I am waiting for the bf at the Lasik center, he soon will be able to see without glasses/contacts! And it's his birthday! Happy Birthday babe! I love you!!

Giving back...

My company adopted a family for Christmas and I really wanted to contribute. The little girl asked for a barbie and I couldn't wait to get her one. I headed to Target last night and it seemed like they were low on Barbies! I found one I liked and I wrapped it and then realized I forgot to take a picture.

Here is what she really looked like

It feels really good to be a part of something like this at Christmas time. I am so glad I can make someone's day a little brighter.

Ornaments & Frappy

I had a really great weekend doing a bunch of different things! I was able to go to bed early two nights because the bf was working and I got a lot ready for my cookie party this coming Friday.

Saturday night I went to the local harbor and watched the parade of lights and then watched the UFC fights. Any of you into UFC? I just don't understand why they enjoy beating each other up but I kinda watched with one eye.

Yesterday we drove to one of the better malls and got a few ornaments. I only have a picture of one but here it is,

We also enjoyed a bagel and Starbucks in the 80 degree weather, it was perfect.

And lastly, I tried to wrap presents but Frappy wasn't really having it...

TGIF

I am so happy its Friday... although I keep looking at the clock and it seems to be barely moving... I came in early so that I could leave an hour early... come on 4pm!!

Last night we had dinner with two other couples who are pretty much our best friends as a couple. Then I came home and watched Oprah... and my heart is still hurting from watching. Did any of you girls watch it?

It was about the Petit Family in CT, the father was the only survivor. I can only hope that man finds happiness one day. I do not know how you carry on after losing everything you had. Here is an article that tells their story.

Petit Family

I don't have too much planned this weekend, doing dinner tonight with a friend and maybe some present wrapping this weekend. Hope you all have a great weekend!

List of 4's

Jessica over at It's just Jess tagged me in this and you just might be next :)

List of Fours


1. Four shows that you watch:

- Oprah

-Ellen Degeneres

-Greys Anatomy

-16 & Pregnant


2. Four things you are passionate about:

-animals-helping any way I can

-friendships and my relationship with the bf

-having a great relationship with my nephew and niece

-finding a carrer that makes me happy



3. Four words/phrases you say a lot:

- Jackass (not sure where I picked this up at)

- Frappyyyy
-What?!

-Want some waterrrr? (to frappy)



4. Four things you've learned from the past:

-Everything happens for a reason (most of the time)

-it will all work out one way or another

-friendships take work if you want them to grow

-it's never as bad as it seems



5. Four places you would like to go:

-Hawaii

-Canada (to visit family)

-Tahiti

-NYC



6. Four things you did yesterday:

-Worked

-Made dinner

-Skypd with my nephew

-strolled the mall



7. Four things you are looking forward to:

-Seeing my family at Christmas

-the result of this job that is pending

-The bf's birthday next week

-Finding out what my friend is having (girl/boy)



8. Four things you love about Winter:

-wearing my UGGs and scarves

-Winter dream tea lattes

-Christmas

-people are friendlier



9. Four Bloggers who should share their List of Fours:

Andrea @ Short & Sweet
Alison @ Life and times of Alison & Justin
Heather @ Divine Detours
Ashley @ Catching up with the Conways

Ava

Jenn over at Westsachoney makes the cutest custom onsies and I knew I had to have one for my goddaughter that will soon be making her debut in this world. Jenn was super fast and I just love how it turned out.

In the second picture you can see the stitching and cute fabric.

I can't wait to send this off to Indiana!

Happy Humpday!

Favorite Xmas Item

I enjoyed a quiet night in last night and turned the lights on the tree and just enjoyed the atmosphere in my living room. I realized my most favorite item: the stocking my mom made for me. Now that she is gone, its the only thing I really have from her. It is my most prized possession and I will never take my eyes off it.

Finally!

I got the iphone 4! Radio Shack is having this awesome deal when you trade in an older iphone you get money off the iphone 4. Since I had the 3g before, I got $75 dollars off making my total $117. Can't beat that!  I didn't really need a new phone, but the price was great and there are some features I didn't have before. The camera takes such clear pictures, I can now face time when the boy and I are apart, and can even take little videos.

I also saw the movie Burlesque this weekend. I thought it was really good! I have never been a huge Christian Aguilar fan but she has an amazing voice! The movie line reminded me of Coyote Ugly but I still really enjoyed it.

I also just got a call from the Sheriffs department saying they are moving forward with my background and scheduled my polygraph for next week! I am so excited/nervous!! I want this job so bad!!

Lastly, here is a new vase I picked up at TJ Max.

Jury Duty

I feel like I have been away from blogging for quite some time! I had jury duty on Wednesday and I was kinda hoping to get put on a case, but kinda not because I don't have anyone trained at work that can do my job. Right at 9am, they started calling names left and right. I guess it was a busy day because there were 124 trials for the day. After the morning break, the lady said she had some bad news.... That a court 45 minutes away needed a panel. I wasn't really paying attention but heard my name and thought no way! But sure enough, I had to drive out there and eventually was picked to be a juror. The trial started yesterday morning and it was over a civil issue. One lady had loaned her brother and his wife $80 thousand dollars and was never paid back the full amount. Long story short, it seemed like both women were lying and our job was to decide who was telling more of the truth. Yesterday we were given a 2 and a half hour lunch and when we got back, we were told both parties had settled over lunch. So that's that... I am happy that we didn't have to decide something that would ultimately affect one of them.... but I would have liked to know what they decided.

So I am back at work... I would have liked to be out one more day :)

This morning I had my interview with my background investigator. I thought it went well... they even asked for my email and password to my facebook... crazy right??

The sucky part is that I am a alternate... I need someone to get disqualified or drop out somehow in order to be one of the four they are going to hire...

I have to hope it will all work out the way its supposed to...

Black Friday

Did any of you make it out shopping for Black Friday? For the first time, I braved the craziness and went! The bf's parentals live about 30 minutes from anything town. The alarm clock went off at 3am and we were on the road at 3:30.

The town where Target, Walmart, everything is at has only about 4,000 people in it so I really wasn't expecting any crowds. BOY was I wrong!! We literally pulled in the parking lot at 4am when the doors to Target were opening. The line was FOREVER long. I could not believe how many people were flooding into Target. And the crazy part, I didn't even know what I wanted! I did a quick loop thru and grabbed a small mixer and checked out before the lines began. Then we headed to Walmart for the sale that started at 5am. There was 1 thing I was on a mission to buy, and I got it! But I can't say what I got because my sister reads this and the gift was for her!

Our time in AZ was really relaxing and nice to get away. I missed Frappy like CRAZY and it was so good seeing him when we got home.

I also got some really crazy good news on Friday. I had applied with the Sheriffs department a few months back, and interviewed with them the beginning of October. Then I got a letter close to Halloween saying I wasn't chosen to move forward. But then on Friday they called saying they wanted to put me into Background. It was so out of nowhere! I have my interview with the background investigator on Thursday morning and then starts the slow, long process of digging into my past. I REALLY hope this works out for me!!

Traveling & AZ

Well we made it to Arizona! The airport really wasn't too crazy and we thankfully made it with time to kill. We were sent upstairs because we were randomly selected for screening and I had the privilege of doing the new body scan. You have to stand between these two things with your hands over your head for 10 seconds. Kinda weird but whatever.  Here is the little plane we took.

Today we are obviously celebrating Thanksgiving :)

We ran to the store to get some last minute items and I got to drive his grandparents new Prius. Its so quiet and drives so nice.

Hope you all have a great day with your loved ones <3

Car Problemos

So I dropped my car off yesterday at the dealership because every time I start the car, a weird sound happens. Ever try to start your car when its already on? That is like the sound...

So they said they tried starting the car 30+ times and never got it to make the sound.

I went and picked it up at 5:30 and I started the car and it made the sound. I turned it off and on again and it did the sound again. Hmmm... they had it from 7:30am til 5:30pm...

Anyways, I took my car and I will take it else where. I think I need a new starter...

I really don't enjoy car problems near Christmas... plus I bought my car in the month of December so my registration is due soon too. Yuck

I gotta pack tonight because tomorrow we are off to Arizona for Thanksgiving.

CHP, and the rest of the weekend

Saturday morning it was pouring rain, but I had to get up for my test with CHP. Thankfully there was only 20 people testing, the bad news, they are on a hiring freeze so they don't know when they will be able to interview/hire. But I am glad I took the test and will get the results in 4 weeks.

I hit up Michael's after that and got some cookie cutters for a girls night I want to have in December and I also found some great $1 items for the kids stockings.

I then had lunch with my friend Kristen and wandered around downtown, it was perfect.

My goal for Sunday was getting our Christmas card picture taken. My friend came over and took them but Frappy is like a 2 year old child and made it very difficult. We finally picked one and I ordered them last night. I didn't know that the shutterfly discount was only for stationary cards, I was really wanting a flat photo card... So we will see how those turn out...

And finally, my car is back in the shop. I really hope they fix whatever is wrong! I feel so weird without my car!

Friday Night Sushi

On Friday night the bf and I headed to the Valley to have dinner with his sister and her husband. We see them every few months and we always have a good time. We went to a little hole in the wall sushi place and had a good time catching up. I am realizing more and more that I really don't enjoy sushi all that much... hopefully next time we can do Mexican food. 

His sister has three little min pins and I of course like the littlest one because its close to Frappy size. 

I am stressing out today because something is wrong with my car and it sucks that it has to happen now when I really don't have extra money since its the holidays. Every time I start my car it makes a strange sound and feels like the car may not even start. I just took it in last week because there was a recall on it and I am annoyed I have to take it back in tomorrow. Being car less sucks too. 

All I want accomplished today is getting our Christmas card picture taken...

And I am trying to get myself to church as well.

Happy Sunday girls

Mary Kay...

Last night one of my good girlfriends had a Mary Kay party at her house, and as a good friend, I went. I have never been to one before, and quite honestly, I am not a fan of these type things... Anyways, I wasn't planning on buying anything because I like the stuff I already use and I really don't wear anything besides mascara, eyeliner, and eyeshadow. We all sat around the table with our little samples and mirror and then I felt like I had to buy something. And I don't like feeling like that.

Anyways, I have heard from many people that their mascara is really good so I got that for $15 and eyeliner for $10. The lady also mentioned she makes 50% off of everything she sales. Nice for her I guess. I would normally never spend $15 on mascara so I hope this stuff is good.

Any of you have prior experience with MK?

Quiet Week

This has been a week of quiet evenings at home and I have enjoyed it immensely! I usually over do it during the week with dinner dates but this week I kept it simple. Last night the boy and I just cuddled on the couch and it was perfecto. And we ate spicy chicken nuggets from Wendy's, my new obsession!

I also watched 16 & Pregnant last night... pretty good show... although no 16 year old should really be having babies...

Happy Hump Day

NKOTBSB

This may sound crazy to some of you... but I just got tickets to NKOTB & Backstreet Boys for their tour in 2011! My friend Kim just loves NKOTB and I may not love them as much, I am going with and I am sure I will still have fun!! It will be fun to remember the days of singing along to Backstreet Boys and seeing how they are after all these years.

It was so stressful getting the tickets because at first the system was on major overload and I didn't even think tickets were going to come up and this was just for presale people!

Anyways, tickets are purchased and now we just wait 8+ months. Good thing she is having her baby in June, otherwise I think she might have gone into labor at the concert considering her love for NKOTB!!

Happy Monday! 

Date Night

On Friday I came home to these....

And a note telling me we had dinner reservations at 7

He took me to a really nice restaurant that we hadn't been to before and the food was so good.

It was really nice to have an evening out and I felt so special <3

Funky Funk

I know this is silly but I feel like I am in a funk...

I feel like most my girlfriends have some sort of good news.

Either they are engaged, newly married, or expecting.

I am really happy for each of them but at the same time feel I am missing something.

I really hope a change is coming my way. I really want a new job too.

Happy Friday!



Where's the milk?!

I have a very strict routine I follow every morning... shower, cereal, blow dry hair, get dressed, out the door. Well I got my cereal ready, went to grab for the milk, and the milk was gone. The night before I had the bf pour me some milk and I knew we had a whole gallon so I knew it wasn't just empty. I started opening different cabinets and then proceeded to wake the bf up to ask where the milk was. He got up and kept starring in the fridge. Hello! I have already looked in there! So then he looks to the cabinet where we keep our drinking glasses, lo and behold...

Holiday Pix!

It is pretty much the beginning of November and I am in Christmas mode!! I already want to decorate and deck everything out with Christmas things. I have always wanted to send out Christmas cards but have felt weird since we aren't married. But we are still a family and maybe this time next year I will have a ring on it! I am going to send out cards this year to our closest friends and family and I am going to use Shutterfly! I can hardly wait to start snapping possible pictures for our cards! We even bought a tiny little elf hat for Frappy to wear! I just love receiving cards and pictures in the mail and plastering my fridge with the people I love and I cant wait to be a part of it. And in case we feel like throwing a party, we can use these Invites!

Here are some of my favorites!

There are so many options, I know you will find one you like too!

And for gift ideas, they have Calendars! I know a lot of parents/grandparents would appreciate these!

Shutterfly will definitely be where I get our 2010 Christmas cards...especially since they are offering 50 free prints. Click on Shutterfly to get yours!

Can't wait to show you mine when I get them!

Holy Toledo

Another Monday... Amazing how fast the weekends go by...

This weekend the bf was in Palm Springs doing a wedding so I had lots of ME time and I spent most of that relaxing at home and going to bed early. Going to bed early is one of my favorite things <3

I met my friend April for lunch on Saturday, I really enjoy our lunch dates. We wanted to start walking in the evenings but now with the time change, its way to dark at 530.

Saturday evening I met my friend Jennifer for dinner in the harbor, we had such a pretty view.

Sunday the bf returned and we ran some errands and had a nice lunch together. Look how big these

fish n'chips were!!

Oh so yummy!!

Last night we met Will and Jenn to see the movie Due Date and I wasn't too impressed. It had its funny parts but felt really long.

Looking forward to a quiet night tonight, gotta watch Grey's and Kendra on the DVR.